Connection

My back hurt again today, and I am trying to not think about it. Instead I am focusing on what I can control. I went to Spa Deportivo and it made me feel better. One, Carla greeted me. Connection. She knows me. She showed she cared. The fisio helped me relax a little and told me it is tension from over use. Makes sense. I haven't been giving my body much rest. I think it has been asking for it too. I have been tired a lot. So, here we are now. Resting. I also ate less when Justin was here. Not good, and probably a contributing factor. So, what is going on this mind now? I finished my vision board. I have similar goals than last year. And I have worked towards meeting them. I still need to work on food. And supplements. Getting there. I missed my flight to go home so I will go Jan 26th weekend. It will be good to see family. Then Carnaval. Then maybe something in March. Then Japan. Then Ecuador. I have trips to look forward to. I still think about ayahuasca. I still think about what my heart misses. Connection. Love. That's what I need in my life. A man in my life that is nice, kind, sweet and gentle. Who makes me feel safe, and that I am attracted to. Someone who's energy makes me calm and smile. Where are you? In the meantime, that's ok. I will continue to work on me. Do more things that bring me joy. Massages, connecting with people, pool, biking. In terms of connecting, I will go to that brunch next weekend with Panamigos or another event. That's a start.

I'm grateful for:

- The connection me and Justin have

- Getting to see family soon

- Work 

- My body doing what it needs to to heal

- Hope for a full and complete recovery

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