Snakes

I saw Kury yesterday. It helps when I meet someone else who is single with no kids. Refreshing actually. I want to stop reframing that story to one full of freedom and adventure. To make the most of this time until I do find the one. I know he is out there. I had another weird dream last night. I was with some kids on elevators I think. Patty may have been there. We were going to see if there was a snake on a rock in the murky water. It was there and then went in the water. We all ran as if it was after us.

I've been sad today, started the morning missing Justin. I miss the intimacy. The closeness. And then I missed our talks. I laughed so much with him. And then I tried t think of things that were wrong to make me feel better. It didn't work. I do love him. He may not be right for me in all the ways I could want, but I do feel like it is and was love. I didn't feel this with Peter. I definitely didn't feel this with Matt. So what do I do. Let this wave ride? I know that's the right thing. Is this maybe the bargaining or depression state perhaps. I hope he's doing ok. Probably drowning himself in instagram, working hard at the gym. I wonder what he's up to. It's ok to feel this way though. It's part of the process. Trust the process. Trust yourself. The question is did my gut tell me he isn't the one, or that he is and I'm scared. At least this is a sign that I really do have feelings and I can love. And I will love again.

Dream about Snake In Muddy Water is your need for romance and passion. You display much confidence in your abilities. You are looking for help from a higher source. Your dream hints your own sense of morality and conscience. You are worried about some outcome in your life and want to control what is happening around you.'


I'm grateful for...

- Love

- Hope for a full and complete healing physically, mentally, and emotionally

- Life
- Family

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