New Beginnings

I am feeling better, not a 100% but better. I listened to a podcast about transitions yesterday. Change is easy, transitions are hard. I identified with that. An the reason they are so hard is because we suffer loss each time. For my transition to Ecuador, I lost a lot. I lost my true as Panama CD and my identity as the cyclist everyone knows in Panama. I lost structure mostly. My routine I loved. Bike. Work. Pilates or swim or walk. Dinner. Bed in my apartment I loved. I lost control, which goes with structure. I lost that control of being comfortable and confident and in control at work, on the bike, in every day life. I lost the idea of Panama being my home forever, but that's not exactly true. I can always go back. I lost my attachment to my team, to my relationships there, to the comfort of being there. So yes, I suffered loss. It's not the transition, it's the loss. No I know what I am losing so I can move on. I can decide how I will move on. How I will live my life in Ecuador. How I want to spend the next 3 years of my life. For starters, I will move into my new place which is in the works, I will do pilates on weekdays which I have identified and will start this week. I will start biking, contact Felipe Borja next week to start next weekend. I signed up for a ride on August 25th and September 29th. I got this. We got this. 

I'm grateful for...

- New beginnings

- Family

- Memories of papi

- My health


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