Whale

 I had a dream of a whale, it had a baby. I was scared though. Terrified of being near it. It was a sign, that everything will be ok. That I am on the right track. That I am strong and can overcome this. So here we go. Be strong. Don't let the anxiety get to me. I had a rough week, really rough. Just a lot of things not going as hoped. First I recked the car, then the discipline issues with Volunteers, then that ride I did with Ruth. And the apartment. Is it really what I want. I feel stuck with that. Paralyzed. And Justin, I told hi not to go to the conference. It's too much. 

I'm grateful for...

- love

- hope

- my health

- whale dream

The appearance of a whale in a dream can signify that everything is or will be o.k. and is often related to spiritual matters of the mind and heart. They’re a sign of protection and a signal that you must relax and stop worrying.


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