25 year old lesson

I saw my the tarot therapist yesterday in the park, Erika. She was nice. I kind of saw her more as a friend. I don't think she has quite the experience I need, but she gave me clarity. Mommy, family. It is the cause of my stress. Set boundaries so she will set them with Nito. Talk to my sisters first, and then mommy together. We need to do this. Take action. Stop talking, do more. I know this is something that I need to work on. Somehow that has stopped within me. It has slowed down. My determination halted. With work. With ideas. Move. Act. Just like in the dream, the voice that told me to "act." Buy a rental investment, go hiking, agahuasca. Remember what guanche said, every time you say something do that thing. That was 25 years ago, and here I am learning the same lesson. The universe needs me to do this. So, we can start with this. Sign up for aguayasca retreat in December, change outbound flight to the 27th and visit family in December and talk to Mommy with sisters. Schedule hiking day on Sunday with mission group. We got this. Buy a lot and build two tiny houses to rent in St. Pete when prices go down. Go to pilates classes and buy a reformer. Life is short, live. Try to understand mommy. When her knee is better invite her to visit. Go walking and Galapagos. She would love that. That could be her xmas present from me. Do. Act. Move it. There is no time. Or, there is all the time in the world. Just live. Be happy. Find joy. Find peace. And stay there

I'm grateful for...

- family

- hope for a full recovery

- life

- Clarity from yesterday's session and Elizabeth Gilbert

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