Move

I was still critical yesterday, not a lot but I noticed I was even telling Gio. That's not very good of me to do as a leader. I will stop. Be calm. Be kind. Don't be critical. A pattern.  Poppy was so critical, and even mommy started getting it from him. It's contagious. We don't want that kind of behavior on the team, so stop showing it. No more. Expect good intentions like Ann says. I am also feeling a little stuck. Like I need an ump. Something to get me going. I am on auto pilot. I had a dream that my bike was doing that thing it's done before in dreams. It doesn't advance, or just a little. So that's just it. I am stagnant and even my subconscious knows it. I need to be intentional about what I want. What do I want? A side project, to get trained and ready for FEMA application, to learn something new. To try mountaineering. Pick one. And dive into it, Anni. You have the time right now. Go for it. Move. Another pattern form poppy, don't fall into it. Don't be still. Don't convince yourself out of ideas. Just move. One step forward. You can do this. 

I'm grateful for..

- my job

- my health

- Justin

- birds chirping in the morning 

- my apartment and the view

Dreaming about riding a bike but not moving often symbolizes a feeling of stagnation, lack of progress, or being stuck in a situation in your life where you feel like you're not moving forward, even though you're actively trying to make progress.

It could also act as a warning that you need to stop wasting time, become more organized in your undertakings.

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