Skye

I wanted to go on the ride this morning, but that didn't work out. I haven't been able to do the Tuesday ride in a while. Things keep coming up. Today, it was rainy as it rained all day yesterday. And, I didn't sleep until 10:30 last night. I was at the hospital with Skye, and had to take clothes to Erika. It's been a mess with this girl. She's finally better, but I guess they are having trouble stabilizing her. She said she was triggered by a memory. I hope that doesn't happen to me. Isaac's case is also scary if it is indeed not true and his mom is ill mentally. Isaac and Skye scared me, made me think how important mental health is and how easily it can escalate. I know Susanna always said I had a suppressed memory. Maybe that is why I have these episodes when I am not on medication. All this triggered me when I had my breakdown. I think it was more serious than people close to me thought. The shingles made it worse, but I was on a bad path. The stress was unimaginable. Susi wasn't helpful at all. Marcela wasn't either. She tried, but she wasn't. Mommy was. Patty was. Jenny was. Peter was. Those are the people I care about the most. Not family anymore. Not Susi and Marcela and Nito anymore. It's like I don't even know them. 

Hopefully she leaves soon so she can get help, and we can be done with this. It's exhausting. Today, I have my town hall and then I have the market with Volunteers, then a call. It will be fun. I need to rest tonight. 

I'm grateful for...

- My health

- My job

- Being able to make Skye smile

- Being able to exercise and sleep in my own bed

- Justin 

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