Addiction

I think I am getting dependent on Justin. I'm spending a lot of time talking to him. More than when we were a couple. I wonder why that is. A need to be close. A need for a partner. Addiction perhaps. I need to pull away a little. We are friends. That is what I decided. So, as friends we can talk once in a while. Maybe I can try skipping a few nights of watching a show. I have a routine, and I am engrained in it. I need to switch it up a little. Maybe try something else at night. Or maybe try watching a show on my own. Something has to change. I am who I am so I can manage the finding a goal part. What I do need now though is more connection. More people to hang out with. I need to let Justin go to do that. If not, I don't know if I am following what Kat suggested. He is still holding me back. 

I'm grateful for...

- life

- my health

- having a day to myself at home yesterday

- my job 

- family and friends

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