Disconnect

Yeah there is no easy way to do this. I am letting 14 people go. No easy way. I hope I can do it today and tomorrow. I need to be able to. This is my task. It won't be easy. Thank you universe for giving me the chance to do this before I go on leave. Or please give me the chance to do this before I go on leave. It won't be easy, and maybe that's why I don't feel good or have this headache. Maybe it's because I am stressed. Underlying stress that affects my body. One step at a time. 

I really enjoyed Loja. I needed it. Walking round, eating a good meal, popsicles in the park. Rest. No emails. Disconnected. And, I got to see another part of Ecuador.

Now I need to focus on Saturday. This brevet won't be easy and I need to start getting ready. My head still hurts, maybe I am fighting something. Hopefully I can get through this and go with a clear mind an energy. I am still feeling off. Then, Mallorca. I can deal with that when I get there. It's not a tour. It's not a scheduled thing. It's just seeing Sonja and Matthias, and riding. That's all. Just a chance to disconnect. 

I'm thankful for...

- Life

- My job

- My health

- Family

- Getting to go to Mallorca and disconnect soon 

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