Colonoscopy

I am doing my colonoscopy today. Ufff the prep was awful. One day bland foods, one day just liquids, really gross prep medicine. I'm glad I can get this over with. Will work from home and then I need to get more into work. I am slacking, at least I feel like I am. I am almost ready for something new, but at the same time I am grateful for my job. I am grateful for being here in Ecuador. For being able to do what I love. The only thing that's missing is deep connection. I will get there, now I have more space since I am not talking to Justin every free moment I have. Still can't believe it. Two plus years every day. I am starting to get used to not having him around as much. It helps to stay busy, but even when I'm not, I remember he was annoyed with me. I remember the DR. Silence. Him being a guy. Me being bored.

I'm grateful for...

- getting this colonoscopy done today

- life 

- family and friends

- my health physically, emotionally, and mentally

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