Healthy Needs

I had an ok weekend. Saturday was good. Sunday not so mch. I was in my head a lot, really tired so listened to my body, bt definitely notice a difference when I don't ride. I needed it in a way. I thought a lot about changing things up though. Here is what I decided. Join Naru CrossFit and the book club. They will keep me busy at least. Either Naru or just the gym. But the gym I will have to push myself, hard. I can work out at lunch though which is good. That and pilates. Still thinking about it. I can't do much now because of my him anyways. I need something. Another year of this will make me isolated again. I thought about Justin again last night. A lot. I missed him. I regretted whatever we lost. I compared him to most men. I thought about when he was mad at me. Frustrated with me on the trip. How much he was in his head, like at the waterfall. Just like I was all those times we were together before that. Undecided. But, there was something different. He was unhappy. I hope he is better now, if it was me that was causing it. I still don't know how we are going to be friends again, but I miss laughing with him. And talking. And feeling like myself. Suprising myself with the things I said and thought. It was healthy. Like Elizabeth said, he was filling healthy needs. 

I'm grateful for...

- my health physical, emotionally, mentally

- life

- friends and family



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