Stitches

I fell off my gravel bike going to Nono. I just can't catch a break with that gravel bike in Ecuador. I think I might sell it or keep it for when I am in the US and can do more gravel riding that's real gravel. Yes, it was disappointing, but I am grateful it was just stitches. It could have been worse. And like Claude says, accidents happen. I wonder if this is the universe telling me to slow down again, too. I have been tired. I have been biking a lot. Maybe there is something I need to pay attention to that I'm not. Something I need to dedicate time to that I'm not. Whatever it is I hope that I get that sign. Show me what that it is. Lead me there. In the meantime, I have to remember that it was a small fall. The hospital visit was easy. I can still walk. I can do more in 3 days, and I can bike in 7. So be thankful. It's ok. Rest will be good for me. Embrace it. Eat well. Get a massage. Walk. Do your puzzle. Go to the market. Breathe. 

I did call Justin. Well I wrote him, then deleted it, then he saw it anyways. It was ok. Definitely not like before. He is doing well. He seems like this hasn't effected him at all. Which makes sense since he never had the same attachment issue I did. Same thing happened when he went to Panama and walked right next to my apartment and never called. I don't feel worse for calling him, but the no talking needs to continue. I will get there.

I'm grateful for...

- The accident not being worse

- Patty and family and her bringing in the kids for me to talk to when I was down

- Justin doing well with work 

- Plans for December 

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