Time for Adventure

I had a series of weird dreams yesterday. I even had dreams remembering other dreams as if they were real. Like Steven asking me to meet him somewhere and me flaking because I was nervous. I replayed all the times I did that and could have missed out. Not sure if it is because I thought I did that with Justin. I didn't. I tried. Many times. It just didn't work, and that's what I need to remember. It didn't work for either of us. Now I just need to focus on adventure and connection. I will sign up for the volcanos. cycling Ecuador with Chris, riding to the coast, visiting Sonja in Panama, going to see family, maybe gravel fest. It will be a busy time. Busy and fun. 

I started the gym yesterday. I will give it a shot. Not super convinced, but who knows. Still not sure if I want to do pilates or not again. I have a reformer here that I want to sell. Maybe I can keep training here until I sell it. I don't want to deal with the nonsense and chaos of those classes, but the workouts were really good. Maybe online?

I'm grateful for...

- work

- life and really living now

- living in Ecuador

- being strong with not talking to Justin and breaking that pattern

- Patty 

- My health physically, emotionally, and mentally

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