Connection on Weekends

Yesterday was good. I was starting a ride on my own and Erika Saa invited me to join her group. I went and it was a good ride. Easy pace, long, and the two others were nice. I got to know her too which was cool. One more person in the cycling community. I connected too. That's what I need. at least one connection every weekend day. Then I went to the cafe in Eco Park with Christian. No connection really. He was nice, and it was nice to connect. But, when he started talking about filters and AI bumble strategies I got insecure. No thank you. Either way I got home at almost 4 and it felt to get out and connect. I had some down time, but not too much. I am feeling good. I am hoping for a good week ahead. 

I did a complete 360 on the nursing school idea. Patty talked me out of it in less than 2 minutes. I am so easily swayed. She said it was below me, which I was also afraid of but that's just the ego talking. I think I would like it actually. Not sure about the school part, but it would be a challenge. I am going to not let that get to me, and hold on to the idea a little longer. I wonder if ayahuasca or San Pedro would help. I think I might start getting off the antidepressants. I think I might be ready. When I go back to the states I will need to anyways, then it will be on my record. Something to talk to Elizabeth. 

I'm grateful for...

- My health physically, mentally, and emotionally

- Life

- Friends and new friends 

- Family 

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