I'm tired

I am following the plan Felipe gave me. Not sure I like it, but here we go. Another day of rest...grrrr. It's ok though because I think I need it. I am tired. And, I can go to the gym at lunch to break up the day a little. I see the proctologist again today and not excited. It still bothers me. No blood, but bothers me. I'm tired. I said that already I think. ready for the weekend. I got to bike with Caro and Fer yesterday which was cool. I feel like I'm making friends now. I like it here. This could be home actually. I could continue to work here. I hope I can stay with peace Corps in some way. I'm not ready to leave. And I don't have to yet. I decided not to go out with Edwin yesterday. I didn't really feel like he wanted to, and was trying to fit me in. I hate that. I'm better than that. I deserve better. Plus, he's never here and I don't need that right now. Not the pattern I want. 

I'm grateful for...

- Love

- Connection

- My health physically, mentally, and emotionally 

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