In 6 Years

I'm doing well. I feel good. I had my therapist appointment yesterday with Elizabeth. She heard me about the hole I told her I have. And that men just dill it. She said it could be that, or it could be that the wrong men are coming into my life. That they don't fit the hole correctly. I think that could be true too, and I don't let those men in because I'm busy with the wrong men. I haven't thought about Justin very much. Here and there, but I don't miss him. I hold on to him not waning anything further. Screw that. I had a good friend for three years. That's enough. That's what life is about too. They come and go. People come and go. It's part of life. I know that well. And sometimes they reappear, like Kim did. Like Emma Kate did. Temporarily. Maybe he will too one day. Maybe they all will. But, they all taught me something. Justin taught me how special I am. He taught me how to be connected. He taught me how to let go of this pattern. I could have done it sooner, just like with Peter, but I didn't and here I am. Maybe this is all meant to be this way. Maybe I will find out later. In 6 years like the tarot cards say. 

I'm grateful for...

- Getting to talk to Jenny yesterday

- My options and having them 

- Life

- My health physically, emotionally, and mentally

- My healing 

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