Lost Car

I couldn't find my car. I searched all over. Everywhere. Couldn't find it. Patty helped me. In the middle of it there was some kind of war going on, and I wanted to work out. I was in the book at some point. Waiting for an attack. In a meeting to discuss how to prepare. But, the car was what I remember the most. I couldn't find it in the mall. Then, someone said at a cafe that I did take it. I thought it was stolen. I am pretty sure this is my subconscious telling me what I feel because I may not get extended. I don't have control of my career, or what's next. Not a good feeling. I did find the car though. Maybe that says something. Let's see what Kavita says on Friday. Or, if CHOPS can be extended maybe I will go for that. Buy me more time. I am lost. I know I have a year and a half, but still. New profession? Do I want to go through that school. I can seem myself shifting, but I would lose my identity. Nurse and EMT and 50, or continue on managing teams. I'm bored here. I need some direction. Maybe CHOPS would be settling, but it would also buy me time until I found something and development starts again. Hopefully the universe will help me find something. Maybe things will play out just as they are supposed to. 

I'm grateful for...

- my job

- life

- my health physically, mentally, and emotionally 

Having dreams of searching for your own car suggests that you are struggling to regain control and direction in your life. You may feel disoriented and unable to find your way because of external forces or internal conflicts. As a result, your subconscious expresses the need for guidance and assurance in navigating the challenges that lie ahead to you.

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