Step Up

I'm incredibly bored at work. I think about that though, About Andrea and what she said about Ayahuasca. What Kat said. Look at what's around you. Embrace that. Instead of looking round for other things. I need to sit with that for a moment. I could be more engaged at work. I could start planning the program plan design. I could visit Volunteers. I actually might try to do that during cultural week. I could organize something with the trainees. I could start my pre-requisites for nursing school. I could look up schools in North Carolina. I could invest my savings. I could write my book. I could do more, I need a fire under me that's all. But, I don't always need chaos to step up. I can step up now. Today. No more procrastinating.

I'm grateful for...

- Life and getting to live

- My health physically, mentally, and emotionally

- My job 

- Hope to meet my partner when the time is right 

- My friends and family 

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