I Will Find Him

I went out with Sebas again yesterday. We went for a coffee and closed the place down again. It was good for me to continue talking because I realized his world is all sport and adventure. It's great for a friend, but I want more romance. I also am realizing how important it is to open other parts of me. And, He always went back to his adventure. Almost like it's his identity. Like Jenny said, I am also seeing if I like him. I don't think I do yet. Maybe we will go out again, maybe we won't. And that's ok. I got to meet an interesting guy who has done crazy adventures and will continue to. I felt worthy getting his time for two long dates. That's enough. I have to say he did inspire me to take on something bigger than myself. I have to think about that. Maybe home leave.

On the other hand, Sergio has the emotional maturity, knows how to go deep, and I am so attracted to his personality. Not an athlete though. And that's ok too. Maybe if I keep putting myself out there I will get it right. I will find one man with it all. Passion for sport. Emotionally available. Present physically. Attraction. One day. I will find him. 

Now we can focus on life again. Maybe I will hear about the leadership program, or maybe the CHOPS position. Is till need to decide on Samoa. 

I'm thankful for...

- Hope for love

- Getting to meet Sebas 

- My health physically, mentally, and emotionally 


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