Both Cam Be True

I've had a couple rough days with George. Reliving, doubting myself again, thiking of what could have been, wishing it was different. I guess it's normal. Was I in love? Maybe with the idea of us. Maybe with teh relationship. But, I don't know. It sure felt like nothing I've ever felt. It felt like love. But that's ok, I need to keep moving. Keep focusing on what is in front of me. On my life. On moving on. Don't fight it. Just be sad. You are lonely, you are injured, you are bored, it's the weekend, you are on your period. It's ok to be sad. It's ok to miss him. Don't fight it, just let it pass through you. You thought it would be different and it wasn't, twice. You gave it three chances. You were clear with what you needed. You felt stressed. He wasn't good for you and you loved him. Both can be true. You liked spending time with him and you needed your space that he couldn't give you. You liked being close to him and the constant sex was too much. You liked the idea of getting married and you were worried about his financial situation. Both can be true. You loved him and you chose yourself. Trust that. Trust Elizabeth. Trust Kat, 

I'm grateful for..,

- Love, and hope to find true love with a man soon

- My health and hope to see good xray results tomorrow

- Patty and that she has Ryan and Lorena to support her

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