Much Better Day

I had a much better day yesterday. Jean helped a lot, It was a good day at work and she was a hit with the staff. My period continued on day 5, which made me realize how my emotions were affected. But the best news is that my bone is consolidated. Yes, the doctor said it looked perfect. I was so happy. So happy. I can get my life back again. Of course, I will take it slow, but at least I am back. I don't want to to go back into what I was doing. Escaping my feelings. No, this time I am going to do it for fun. I miss it, but miss the people more. I also said goodbye to Justin. At first it was just space and in a text, but he got angry and said it should have been a phone call. Maybe he was right, but I don't owe him anything. He was already turning into someone else. Not the man I knew. And then he said I was damaged. That we were. F that. No-one is calling me damaged anymore, because I am not. I am quite the opposite actually. There is nothing wrong with me. And that's not the reason I'm single. I have work I'm doing, but I've been doing it. I am picky, because I deserve to have what I want. I feel good about letting him go. I only want supportive friends in my life and I have them. And Patty. Thank you God. Thank you Universe. 

I'm grateful for...

- Learning to not take guys being assholes.

- Jenny, Patty, Sonja, Fer, Ari, Cris, Andrea, Matthias, Peter.

- My health and getting a great x-ray. 

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