Another Day Off

Patty didn't get the job. Poor thing. I feel so bad for her. She needed that. She deserved it too. Anyways, I had coffee and a walk with Ann yesterday in parquet Carolina. It was nice, but she just needed to vent. I am always there to listen for everyone. But noon listens to me very often. I don't talk either. No-one asks. Ok I know that sounds like I'm the victim, but it's true. No-one asks. I don't like giving information, either. So I did that, I also did a ride with Alfonso, which was nice. He is quite the simple guy. Nice, but doesn't talk much. People probably say that about me. I'll do a ride today, not too long. Not the airport, after that death. Maybe Guangolopolo. I spent the afternoon yesterday at home. I was bored a little, but ok. I connected. Today I have fisio and then massage. And I need to pack. I am still not decided about the volcano trip. I need to think that one through. Just Cotopaxi would be a good start, but then again it would be good to do something challenging. Not sure. And then there is Loja to Quito. That's challenging. And then there is Justin. The wound was open with all the talking so now it feels like I am starting over. That's ok though, I can do this. But I miss him all over again. He gave me comfort. This time we really need to honor it. Break the pattern, Anni. You aren't ready to be his friend. Not yet.

I'm grateful for...

- family

- friends

- being ok yesterday

- my health physically, emotionally, and mentally

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