Cuenca and Loja

I went to Cuenca and Loja yesterday. It was nice, I saw a lot of Volunteers. I had long days. I got to know Jonathan. I felt like I had two productive days at work, something that I lost since I met George. Protective days at work. I was in lust. Leaving early, arriving late. Anything to see him. Anything to not make him wait any longer. The honeymoon phase. I wonder when it would have dissolved. Maybe it wouldn't have. Physical chemistry isn't everything though. I was talking to Darren yesterday on instagram. I am fit and smart he said. Little does he know I am so much more than that. I am pretty amazing. World traveler, good job, interesting life, nice family, close friends, cyclist, active, athletic, spiritual, deep. And for some the no kids and never married thing can be attractive. I am all those things and more. I will find someone, or he will find me. I know it. 

I can't decide if I want to go to Tombopaxi. I'm tired, but I already paid. 

I'm grateful for...

- Life and getting to live everyday

- Financial stbility

- My job 

- My health and hope for full anc complete healing of this shoulder

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